MS – When Sleeping Becomes More Important!

Bad day yesterday!

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I got up showered, drank hot chocolate, made it to the bus and I was almost in Nottingham and I was like I feel like shit! I need to go back to bed.

Making it into work, I did the “morning” thing, got to my desk to be asked how my heath was and I was like I’m undecided. To cut a long story short I then ended up coming home and an hour after I arrived back at work I slept! urg! More or less spending most of yesterday in bed asleep! Which means this morning I had to get out of bed as I don’t think I an possibly sleep much more. Though I am sat here now thinking I could go back..

I’ve done the hot chocolate thing this morning and about to take my tablets! I was going to do some of my story but staring at it like i’m not interested! I’ve got a course to go on at midday in Nottingham about twitter and in the silence of the ticking of the clock I want to sleep again.

So once again my stupid heath is against me and all I want to do is sleep!

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Flash Fiction – Team Building

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They said it would be fun, team building they said, downloads this company app onto your phone and follow the clues on like a treasure hunt, Geo something or another. Great walking round this place with the group of people I hate the most trying to find the hidden clues HA. The prizes bottles of Champaign and Chocolates some say! We have managed to get this far without any incidents but I don’t think I can keep my patience for much longer; maybe I could slope off for a coffee or possibly off home early without being missed.

Written as part of the Friday Fictioneers challenge hosted by Rochelle Wisoff-Fields (more details HERE). The idea is to write a short story of 100 words based on the photo prompt (above).

To read stories of 100 words based on this week’s prompt, visit HERE.

I have started Geocaching with my kids, so when I saw this picture come up yesterday I thought it would be a great subject to wite about…

 

Book Review – Theseus Paradox

The Theseus ParadoxThe Theseus Paradox by David Videcette

My rating: 5 of 5 stars

WOW!

We more or less start the booking with things that we more or less know about 7/7 and then we are taken on a rollercoaster ride / a race against time in some ways. The middle of the book you are sort of like yeah this is a story I am really enjoying it and by the end you are er hang on what if this is the truth!?

DI Jake Flannagan is a maverick but a likable one, drinks to much, has too many one night stands all instead of facing up with what we are dealing with. But we all have our vices don’t we!?

I liked how at one point to move the story on, Jake loses time but it’s put down to sex drugs and rock and roll. Which is believable!

The author has launched his career with a story that we know something about the event and he himself worked on it, I just hope that books to follow are as enjoyable as you can only write about 7/7 events once and put one theory on the table!?

I can see the author sitting with the official secrets act when he wrote this working out what he could include and what he couldn’t!

Very enjoyable and I look forward to hearing what happened to some of the other characters mentioned in this story! Because I am more or less hooked!

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MS Sucks

I am once again experiencing issues 😦

I wish I could get you guys to feel what it feels like when you just stare at a computer and don’t actually know wtf you are doing?

I was sat at work today trying to concentrate on what ever it was and I just spent half the time staring at it and the other time closing my eyes tightly in hope it would seem clearier when I opened them. I could stare into space for hours I am not avoiding work (I gave up and came home around 3) I just generally don’t know wtf I am doing! The feeling of utter confusion yet I should know what I am doing, except someones moved the information and I can’t locate the answer.

My arms ache and all I want to do is sleep!

Please if you could restore all the information in my head I’d be grateful!

HAHA and the best bit, there is bugger all the medical profession will do about it as it’s not deemed to be disabling enough…

It’s at this time the songs always come to my mind “fight the good fight” Our Lady Peace “hobloo” Muse

Anyone wants me I am probably curled up in a little ball somewhere crying!

Friday Fictioner’s “You should of heard them!”

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Photo Prompt ©Jennifer Pendergast

You Should of Heard Them!

” I told the kids to leave the wheel alone! They knew the builder had unattached it from its base while they worked. But no! They thought it would be fun until off it went rolling down the hill till it stopped! You should have heard the kids shouting as it went.

The builders aren’t impressed, they told us that they aren’t moving it back up the hill due to health and safety and we should have kept the kids away!!!

I can’t wait to watch the kids struggle! As they roll it back up the hill serves them right!!! ”

 

My favorite time of the week! I seem to end up doing less work on Wednesday afternoon, as I am trying to write something!!!

A shout out to the amazing Rochelle at http://www.rochellewisofffields.wordpress.com. She organises the photo prompts and links for the Friday Fictioneers. 

Authors write a piece of 100 word fiction, prose or poetry based on a photo prompt and exchange comments on each other’s work.  If you are a writer of short fiction, join in and let your imagination feed us with your stories. 

Heartbreakingly Beautiful

I Let You GoI Let You Go by Clare Mackintosh
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

I let you go is one of those books that after you have read it you just don’t want to put it back on the shelf. I felt the same when I finished the last of the Twilight books I would sit there and wonder how the Cullen’s and Black’s were doing. This book made me feel the same way about Jenna and the other characters in this book. This book is powerful stuff and is so well written that I felt ever single emotion and cringed at those parts that made me feel uncomfortable and made me want to stop reading because I was scared of what was going to happen next.

I am heavily recommending this book to everyone I meet as this is just one of those books that will break your heart and you will be left to rebuild it the best you can. This book stays with you and I can honestly say that I have read few books that have made me feel this way. This book won’t be passed on and if I do lend it out I will make sure it is returned.

Clare Mckintosh has done an amazing job on what is her debut book that I hope those that follow are up to the same standard as this one. But you know what they say about the “difficult second book”

Two words to describe this book “Heartbreakingly Beautiful”

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Hold on Summer is Almost Here

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This picture is of almost every staple I have taken out of things at work over the last seven years! When I first started in my current job I was more or less presented with a large pile of documents and got to scan them in and then file them, this was at a time before paper free! It was also a very depressing time in my life as I was worth so much more than that. I always say to some of the new girls at work that they don’t know how lucky they are before cause when I started I was given endless filing and micro fishing. Seven years down the line now and so much has changed for a start Alex is seven almost eight! So he in away has grown with me while I was been at IRS and I still remember the early days of being up with him and then having to go to work! Cause I always wanted a career and Alex wasn’t going to get in my way.

It has been a roller coaster of emotions to which I guess has ended at me going down to three days a week for the sake of my health! Which yes I know you don’t need to tell me it has been for the best! When someone left work a while back they said to be

“I hope you find what you are looking for”

and at that moment I could of cried probably almost did. Because as fantastic as IRS have been it wasn’t what I wanted to do when I grow up and like many others I fell into that job for safety and security and haven’t got out since.

But alas everything I do has always been for my family, I have always wanted a better life for them and myself and truth be told maybe IRS is the best!? I apply for jobs here and there but there is so much risk attached to me moving especially if my health fails over! Because if I move I will be the new girl, last one in first one out. Plus I don’t interview well!

There are also some big challenges coming up in the Sheldon house hold on the horizon that maybe I am just better off sticking for at least another year!?

I am writing this novel, would I be able to do that if I changed job for a start and I am a third of the way through my study! *cough*

But all this a side people are dying, and again it’s people that effect me someone close to home recently and then of all places I learned of someone else today that I knew when I was younger and all this makes me think why am I sticking when there is so much more out there I could do!? Then this leads to everything else of did I go down the wrong career path at what point in my education did I do something wrong! Why am I not clever enough to do certain job, my health and the big wack on the head when I was younger probably didn’t help and now it’s too late!? Because I have a family to support. But then I see a friend of mine who used to be a teacher and now she is a dr in training and she has MS on top! If she can do it why can’t I?

There are so many amazing people out there fighting bigger battles than I am right now! So why am I just settling!? All those staples I have collected because trust me it’s easier to put them in a cup than in the bin must represent something!? I have so much more I can give but yet I chose to settle!?

We are told when we are younger, we can be anything we want to be, and decisions we make for Alex and Melanie now unknown to them will effect them for what probably will be the rest of there lives.

I hope at some point I do though find what I am looking for, but if anyone has seen it I’ll be glad of the direction towards it!