Writing, Death and other things


So I have entered two competitions recently and I thought that now my stuff is submitted I will share with you my efforts.

The first one was on the subject of Journys and was for the Derby Book Festival it was 50 words and I made several attempts at trying to write something suitable that wouldn’t be deemed to personal so in the end I went with…

The number 22 bus, the smell of stale alcohol and chips after a night out, the smell of body odour on a hot summers evening or aftershave on the way to work, the smell of fresh pine disinfectant of a newly clean bus, how I love the number 22 bus

Then today with thanks to help from a fellow writer and inspired by my daily traveling in a lift for work. This was a 150 words

Love in an Elevator (maybe not the best titled)

I see her everyday as she walks into the elevator. Her shoulder length hair. The wavy dark brown eyes that look straight through me. Those seconds we share together before she leaves me stood in her cloud of expensive perfume as jealousy takes control. Every evening when we all rush to leave I push myself against her in the packed elevator. I’m so close I can almost taste her. Whenever I push too close she’ll look at me with those twinkly eyes and share a joke. She will never suspect anything because I’m just the friendly cleaning lady that she sees every day. I will bide my time and wait for that day when we are alone and I know no one will disturb us. Then I shall drive a knife into her back and carry her into a disused office where she will never be seen again.

Now I am going to attempt to write some more of my “other” WIP that is circulating 50,000 words!



So I have MS (Multiple sclerosis) its such a great illness I can’t even spell it

Today I went to Oxford (108miles each way) to take part in some research to see if Coco can improve fatigue and I am sat in bed having been up since 5am waiting for Frozen to finish so my daughter goes to sleep! So anyway by the end of the week I will be drinking hot chocolate in the morning to see if it helps, so fingers crossed on that one. But I met someone who really inspired me today.

She kinda made me wish I could be a research assistant! and also she said that I should continue blogging and just write what ever (haha) so here we are AGAIN!

We have had a family death which came as a bit of a shock to all concerned! Esp as I get a call at work on Friday telling me I need to come home so I can get Melanie from school. So thats been hard, on two accounts I am supporting my husband and children in some degree while feeling it myself! But I guess it’s a bit like when Andrew’s best mate dieded.

my story seems to be at a stand still 😦 I am still in my three month period to whether I will be accepted by my chosen mentor…) maybe I am better off dictating it!But I’ve just not had the time to do anymore dictating… So maybe tomorrow..

Anyways enough rambling




So I am back at creative writing, and I wouldn’t say I was struggling these last couple of weeks but we have been working on characters, but I already have my characters! So why do I need to invent new ones?

Then I am like, but my bad guy I don’t know who he is yet, and I am still struggling with where do I go with this? What does a terrorist look like? Or could it be a female terrorist, but females aren’t seen in that role in their society, But then it got me thinking about the IRA they were blowing stuff up for other reasons and so I remember being told they would give advance warning of doing this. But then maybe I should forget the terrorist route and go down the drugs route… would that be more plausible? Because why would a terrorist kill a said person, wouldn’t they be more interested in a LARGE impact and not killing one person!? I have been googling terrorism and pulled a varity of web pages off about female terrorists. I wish I had someones brain to pick at.

I did manage to do some writing from a picture out of the avon book of a guy though I was abit lost to start with something sort of happened. But if I work on this am I not getting distracted on the bigger picture.

We also talking about show and tell in class today which had me worried about my whole story in general! John our teacher acted out a good thing which got us all thinking. These past two weeks in class I think they have confused the matter more than relit my fire. Maybe I should of done some more study and then got into my story from class.

Then I keep looking at dictation software, is it worth buying something 2nd hand off ebay to give it ago..?

My ankle is still generally fucked! No work for the rest of the week and I have found that wearing soaks and shoes today has made a big difference. I am really struggling with my daily journal, Yes I have a list of things to be greetful for, but I feel so shity since the “accident” that I can’t be doing with it, as I have had to stop running for 2-3 weeks so there goes that goal! so much for positivity I might climb on the stall or send my child to reach my chocolate again!

It’s all a bit shit really, and all because I came off that ride at the weekend and fucked my foot and ankle!!!

Writing, refereeing & sniffing

Hope everyone had a good Christmas, I did. Christmas isn’t my favorite time of the year. Too much hassle, stress and drama and half the time I just want to sleep. As every year I think in the morning OMG I am going to cry as I am so tired!!! But thanks to the NHS and drugs I think I made it through the day. I wanted to come home and hide several times but no such luck! The highlight of the day  was Alex failing in the canal on our way to Auntie Georgina’s god only knows why but he cycled straight into the canal!!!

I did #parkrun on Christmas eve, I walked all the way round and Alex walked most of the way with me. I think I am going to download the NHS couch to 5k and start doing that at #parkrun. So when I am in town tomorrow I am going to buy a sport bra and we shall see what happens from there 🙂

I have set my PB at 58mins so I can only get better haha

Harder, Faster, Stronger…

Change, Change you life, Change it all


So this afternoon, I have spent the time feeling in the beginning bit of my greatness journal! And once I put the laptop down to sleep. I will begin my journey into the next 90 days. I have no clue how it will work out but who knows.

I wrote quite a bit last night, though thinking today I am wondering if my main character is being motherly enough, her children don’t really play a part in the story, though I guess they do get sent away to the MILs so only really by mention but if she loves being a mum shouldn’t there be more? How do I go about expressing how much she loves motherhood!?

I’ve had that little mix song in my head all day, i might you tube it shortly.

I am also looking at going to parkrun on Saturday morning, but need to get it past Andrew some how…

I want to write so much but right now between staring at the screen and looking at parkrun nothing seems to be following.

I’m on the edge with you…


Why is it so much easier to write the police bit compared to my MC? I wonder if it’s because I know where the police bit it going but the MC…

I went into town with kids on our bikes and then spent the rest of the time wondering how the Asda delivery was going to get through my police cordon!?

My character list is forever growing…

I also need to make a start on my daily greatness journal!

ho hum

By the Grace of God…

I’ve got that Katy Perry song in my head…

Yesterday was pretty much a write off, stupid MS I spent most of the day waiting to go back to bed and cuddle, sleep and eat chocolate. You see the problem is I only work Monday, Wednesday and Friday. So when I wake up on a work day and feel shit, I go to work because I know I’ve got the next day off. Well I left at 4pm, spent the day struggling through didn’t bring my wallet to work so no chocolate!!!! I was in a proper mood! I even forgot I was supposed to me lunching with my sister in law! FAIL! Got home had dinner and rushed the kids to bed so I could go to bed! That sounds bad doesn’t it! MS mum failures 101

Then this morning Andrew wouldn’t get out of bed, and didn’t until 8.20 which means shouting at the kids to get up and get dressed and move!?Why should it be me all the time who has to get them up on a day off!? So he was been in some what of a grump all day! I think he get seasonal adjustment disorder but then I look at him and this if you just got off your arse and did something… I’ve got bloody MS which I am pretty sure is worse and if I have to do shit then…I’ve not said this to him as I think it would cause a bigger huff! A bit like me asking him how we are going to pay for all these Christmas presents.. I hate Christmas!

On the writing front which is why we are all here! I am thinking about entering a sort of competition to get mentoring from Angela Clarke, I just wish I knew what to write for my statement AND my 1000 words piece! I was thinking of contacting my creative writing tutor and asking him for help. But Andrew can’t see how he could help! Alot of help he is (Andrew) I don’t even know where to start!

Maybe I should just keep plodding on with what I am writing, to which I have no idea where it is going… So yeah pretty much definitely need help 😛



Still with the dead body

Life got in the way yesterday so I didn’t get chance to blog, but nothing was really missed I tried to write some more while watching the Apprentice! So you can guess how much I got done. I’ve still not been out to take photos! I am in a bit of a muddle over who would turn up at a crime scene from “Long Eaton” police office. I am in two minds whether to just walk into the police station tomorrow, but then I thought about emailing a CPO?

Though then again I am typing this as I watch Criminal Minds!

I did manage to write some while at work today haha while waiting for the systems to work. But I think I am getting hung up on the venue and the view around where the “body” is found instead of concentrating on the story. But I sorta feel I need to work out who works at the Long Eaton station!? But at the same time does it matter if I invent some detectives that work in Long Eaton? As the story isn’t about the local police force as such it can’t matter if I have got the right number of police officers in the right place??

Nevermind the issues with forensics and getting that right! haha maybe I should concentrate on insurance!?

Health has been better I guess but that might be because I did a lot of sleeping yesterday 🙂 🙂 🙂 my legs are still “painful” Andrew suggested seeing if the drs would put me on something for the winter months!? But I guess for as long as I can “cope with it” and it doesn’t effect work then…

So I’ve got a dead body..

I have started writing, but now i’ve got a body and I need the identity of the body to get back to my MC. Who said this writing businesses was easy! I might go out with my phone tomorrow and take some photos, look on google maps and the “dump” site. So if you hear of someone acting suspiciously it’s most probably me… I wonder if I am best to take my camera and not my phone or is that worse (haha)

Struggled this morning and ended up driving in, my legs have decided that now would be a good time to start “hurting” I managed to stay seated most of the day though! I did half think about asking to borrow someone’s heat pad for their back and sit there with my legs up on a stool with that on it. Maybe I will take the deep heat with me on Friday instead.

I’m tired, but I need to research for a bit I think….