MS – When Sleeping Becomes More Important!

Bad day yesterday!

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I got up showered, drank hot chocolate, made it to the bus and I was almost in Nottingham and I was like I feel like shit! I need to go back to bed.

Making it into work, I did the “morning” thing, got to my desk to be asked how my heath was and I was like I’m undecided. To cut a long story short I then ended up coming home and an hour after I arrived back at work I slept! urg! More or less spending most of yesterday in bed asleep! Which means this morning I had to get out of bed as I don’t think I an possibly sleep much more. Though I am sat here now thinking I could go back..

I’ve done the hot chocolate thing this morning and about to take my tablets! I was going to do some of my story but staring at it like i’m not interested! I’ve got a course to go on at midday in Nottingham about twitter and in the silence of the ticking of the clock I want to sleep again.

So once again my stupid heath is against me and all I want to do is sleep!

MS Sucks

I am once again experiencing issues 😦

I wish I could get you guys to feel what it feels like when you just stare at a computer and don’t actually know wtf you are doing?

I was sat at work today trying to concentrate on what ever it was and I just spent half the time staring at it and the other time closing my eyes tightly in hope it would seem clearier when I opened them. I could stare into space for hours I am not avoiding work (I gave up and came home around 3) I just generally don’t know wtf I am doing! The feeling of utter confusion yet I should know what I am doing, except someones moved the information and I can’t locate the answer.

My arms ache and all I want to do is sleep!

Please if you could restore all the information in my head I’d be grateful!

HAHA and the best bit, there is bugger all the medical profession will do about it as it’s not deemed to be disabling enough…

It’s at this time the songs always come to my mind “fight the good fight” Our Lady Peace “hobloo” Muse

Anyone wants me I am probably curled up in a little ball somewhere crying!

Goals and Aspirations

So this weekends goal is to get my application for The WoMentoring Project submitted! I asked my creative writing tutor to help me well check over a piece of work for me and I haven’t heard anything since! So I moved on to my husband who “has to be in the mood” and says he will look at it later! When I make my first million I will share it with him later 😛 so as always I am having to wait on the edge of glory.

I am yet to make it to #parkrun how do people get up on a Saturday morning after working all week!? Then do it again on a Sunday? I’m usually exhausted by Saturday. So I am struggling with that 90 day goal! Though we are yet to make it to renewals! So maybe there is hope yet and I need to make a start on insurance revision which is due to start on January 1st…

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I’ve got to make dinner shortly and sleep sounds like a plan, but after junior #parkrun I did spend the rest of the morning plus in bed!!!

If anyone wants me I might possibly be asleep, cooking or on the edge of glory!

 

Still with the dead body

Life got in the way yesterday so I didn’t get chance to blog, but nothing was really missed I tried to write some more while watching the Apprentice! So you can guess how much I got done. I’ve still not been out to take photos! I am in a bit of a muddle over who would turn up at a crime scene from “Long Eaton” police office. I am in two minds whether to just walk into the police station tomorrow, but then I thought about emailing a CPO?

Though then again I am typing this as I watch Criminal Minds!

I did manage to write some while at work today haha while waiting for the systems to work. But I think I am getting hung up on the venue and the view around where the “body” is found instead of concentrating on the story. But I sorta feel I need to work out who works at the Long Eaton station!? But at the same time does it matter if I invent some detectives that work in Long Eaton? As the story isn’t about the local police force as such it can’t matter if I have got the right number of police officers in the right place??

Nevermind the issues with forensics and getting that right! haha maybe I should concentrate on insurance!?

Health has been better I guess but that might be because I did a lot of sleeping yesterday 🙂 🙂 🙂 my legs are still “painful” Andrew suggested seeing if the drs would put me on something for the winter months!? But I guess for as long as I can “cope with it” and it doesn’t effect work then…

Week three

So at creative writing today, we did a mixture of things, we talked about openings of a story / good and bad and discussed why we had chosen the opening we did. I chose J M Hewitt’s Exclusion Zone and the first page on my kindle. I said that I liked it as I know / knew nothing about Chernobyl (including how to spell it) but the beginning of the book drew me in and I wanted to learn more. There was also some positive comments from the others in my “group” so that will be two extra sales for her.  They also asked me if I had read any of her other stuff which to date I sadly haven’t (too many books on my amazon wish list and not enough journey’s to work) The other two ladies had Career of Evil by Ronald Galbraith and The Forgotten Seamstress by Liz Trenow. Both sounded good and interesting from the first page, but now I have reached Amazon the second one doesn’t look as appealing.

I know that when I start to read a book, I usually go further than the first page when I decide whether I am interested or not, a book by Mark Billingham I gave up after 54%!!! So I think I probably give it a good go at least.

But the worry I now have is, is the first page of what I am trying to write any good? AH!

We also did some writing promotes, where I had to write down five words about my weekend (children, husband, parties, exhaustion and blogging) he then went round and got everyone’s answers. We then had to write a short piece using a mixture of the words from other people 5 word weekend.

The problem I find is that the class is for two hours and it’s just not long enough 😦 I’d of love to have read my bit on the Poppy I wrote last week but as there is more than me in the class other people have to have the chance to read. Though the good news is that we might be able to extend the course past the four week block 🙂 which will be good.

As for my heath I was okay up until about 2pm when I decided I need / wanted to sleep but alas here I am still having not made it back to bed yet.

Work tomorrow, so no late night for me.